Moment of Felicity

It's been 5 days since the last sad event in my life happened. Things as of this moment is quiet as usual. I woke up early as my alarm clock started to ring it self. More over it's past 5 in the morning and decided to skip another day of work. Long ride from here to there, getting on my nerves yet it gets more tiring everyday. I saw myself caught in daze, many things happened recently and I don't know how will I organize them in my mind. I was pretty familiar in some certain happenings, but I don't see myself in that situation. Funny though it seems I ran away to hide for awhile. I keep myself restrained as possible as I could even people say I'm strong I can melt down in anytime.

I can say I'm on the stage of felicity. It seems now that the world I gaze is much more in war and I have to live with that. To make it more decent to help myself in this I spend time with my family. Never thought that I missed them so much. Here in the house, I talk with them for a lot now than before and everyday I misses my dad as well. But the chance always never looses, there's always something to look forward and family is what I want to prioritize at the moment. I tried to spend talks with my brothers and then again everything is so peaceful as I thought it wouldn't happen anymore. Next, a fun time with friends. I'm sure spending a time with different attitudes, personalities, characters and to laugh with their silly joke is what I also miss in my life. This month I've been with them; they give their best way to pull myself together and that's what I love about them the most. I AM LOVED. Rich in love by family and friends is always I treasure. Through them I never thought smiling is what really is ME. I heard a some few giggles and turned into more that I said, "hey! I'm laughing." Wow! it was so nice to live this life even some things will grumble in front of me, I never thought of loosing with it again. Surrender to more what's powerful than me and anything in this world is something. To know that I have this purpose driven life. I know this adventure will surely be always different, fun, full of learning, and being a human and capable to feel those things is normal, to be able to deal with these events is something I want to say, sing, tell and most of all LIVE.

-Amhran