It was always a good feeling, but inside there's always longing and need for comfort. Every morning I always want it to be different, different from any other days I've got even if I got nightmares I always think it will always be good than any other. When I go out and see people they'll ask me "How are you?" I will always say "I'm fine. I'll be alright." You know it's not a lie, because I will always try to say that through out the day. Give the best smile I can give; the fact that I am alive and get to see the happenings of even today is not much to be sad about. I always love to say that all things are good and will always be even though inside your starting to feel this emptiness that you want to get rid off, one smile will be fine and you can cover it up with so many things.
This day it wasn't bad, it was kinda good adventure for me it's a great blessing to see the sun rose high up in the sky and see it goes down and hide behind the clouds. It was always faster than it is. I so love to write something and then listening to Mr. Yiruma's Piano list very accommodating to the soul and I can even think a lot of stuff in my head that I just want to let it all out. Yet, my heart was always affected making me all emotional and can't think of a way to be happy.
It seems that my eyes can't cry a river again, it's okay to ignore a lot of things in my life I don't know its okay to be just like this. I hope tomorrow it'll be different again and let myself put a smile in my face. This is my happy-gloomy mundane Monday. I wish I have more better ideas and story to tell. Good one for me!
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