Special Blogsode: The Hurting

I had this kind of feeling not too long ago. I really don't want to cry or even be sad, but being treated like you're the worst human being in the entire world you can bare the title. What more the aliens who are trying to invade the world? Even you want to make him understand once he closed his mind and keeping a stand to what he believes in he won't falter, you're just going on comparing feelings, comparing each other's standing and what you did to the world of relationship, it's like teaching an animal to fetch and can't understand the words.When I go through this path I didn't even think of what activities can happen you just go without knowing where to go. The pain hurts double and I can't do anything about it. I've checked my twitter and somehow most of the tweets there are related to what's happening to me and my crazy relationship. It's kinda annoying yet I want to take the advice specially this one:  Sometimes you have to forget what you feel and remember what you deserve.

I want to find a way out, I want to go out that door and never look back, just walk away. I've been in so many relationships and I can say that this is the worst of it all. I can't say how stupid to feel all the butterflies in my stomach and all the fluttery. The first will always be amazing, but through out the journey every time you get into a fight from sweetness it'll turn to bitterness. You'll lose every thing once you gave it all.

I never wanted that person to feel such pain along the way and I hope he knows also that I'm going through building myself from all the hurtful words I hear from him. I'm maybe the worst. but I can never be hypocrite in love, I know how to love. 

I maybe going through this is insane, somehow I just want my head straight and tell my heart what to do. The beauty of love in a sense of pain.