Saturday Fever: On The Heights of Lows, Love Vs. Like

I never really actually want to have a fever, but somehow words are forming a lot in my head and its been an overwhelming week for me. I've got lots of adventure to share that's why I need to update my blog and share those good stuff.

I'm home, things are quite not dandy and everything seems get out hand. I decided to take a sit, relax and sipping a nice hot coffee while the rain just pour on like a sound of angry orchestra, a good sound in my ear I love it. Here I am facing an empty page waiting to be fed up by my untold stories of new beginnings, funny moments, unforgettable reminisce and the list goes on. One way or another my soul just want to release an enormous power of how good I am at writing. But I miss this a lot of things happened and I want to think straight right now since my mind is clouded and need of escape.What will be the heights of my lows?

I would like to have a rewind or a pause button in my life and see what time and moment I can go back to, mistake I want to undo, pause on the good times and just watch it the way it is. I'm always been intrigued about the way of our life individually or not, perhaps the change of the world drag every one else to its core and we just go through the flow of it, sometimes we almost can't keep up with it, it drastically change every milliseconds. When I think about it a lot of things change in my entire life, there is my point of view, my perception, and just like the growth of this world I can never deny that I've already got a long way and now I'm here and manage to get here alive. Then there's people who are part of that change and the reason why there's is change. I've known myself as reckless, fragile, stubborn, simple and typical. My way of happiness is just simple, I see good things in everything and I always give me best and I hope I do. Something that I want to be accepted the way it is if there's any need to change for good then go for it. What is the reason? I love someone, but confuse at the moment. Now I want to share something that I learn within the 9 months I'm in the sky and then I've stumble in an article I've read that might lead to a way out of confusion probably for me and it might help you out too. What I'm curious about is this:  Like vs. love. One paragraph the writer says,  

"When you think about it, there are so many shades of gray, and sometimes like can get so tangled and become so enmeshed with love that it's nearly impossible to tell them apart. Sometimes it's hard to separate one from the other." 

Pretty scary? Maybe. Pretty Painful? I guess, but somehow that's reality we forgot about it, even I caught up with the differences. Its painful as it seems yet it might be the way to love. How? Continuing on to what she says, 
"And is it even a bad sign if you don't feel that rush of love right away? We're often taught that love is so much stronger than like. If we don't love passionately, then it doesn't mean anything. If we like something, our feelings aren't deep enough to go anywhere. I admit that I've found myself in this trap a time or two. But what about the bridge that like can create? OK, I know, friends, it's a cheesy metaphor, but it's a true one. I can't help but think that it's in those little moments of like that lead to love. It's in those early conversations of getting to know each other, even if you're just chatting about your favorite books. It's in laughing at each other over your choice of movies. It's in those little moments you don't even know are taking place at the time. I suppose it's sort of like finding love when you're not even looking for it... After all, maybe it's called falling in love for a reason. You don't just do it in one fell swoop. You do slowly and naturally. You carefully make your way across that bridge, and eventually -- sometimes before you even realize it -- you find yourself on the other side.

I felt hope all of a sudden, but no expectations. I always say I won't give up to that person, I want to take a stand on that phrase, and to make that happen I have to prove it. You know I've never been like this, so I'm very curious that this is very challenging.. the real deal now is that never look for it or push it just let it flow, slowly but surely. There's this another phrase good things come to those who patiently wait! funny I just realize that now. LOL! If you are strong enough to believe that everything is possible then it is. We are human beings that so vulnerable in every way. I am weak that when it comes to this kind of situation I always trip, fall and it hurts really, really bad; I think the pain is worth it. I can't blame the emotions, the flow of life and human biology; this thing that's making us in need of someone. I guess we can't be living alone, I guess that's how I am too. If I line it in a good way, think positive, loving thy own self then maybe he can see it. Then maybe I might end up with him... If not I don't know....


XOXO

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