Vegetable Soup for the Soul: One Cloudy Wednesday

Some people are blind to the core, not sensitive enough to feel your efforts and even you are trying really hard yet it seems not enough, and no appreciation. Some times you think if there's compassion or care. However without suffering there will be no compassion. Anyways, what am I talking about? I'm talking about people who take for granted other people. Maybe I'm just the type who seems doesn't see or even feel that another person have compassion to someone like me and if that person really exist. You see, I'm in that position and I'm telling you right now it is painfully and killing me slowly. 

You do things because you want to send a message "Here I am!" but no all you get is a cold, cold feeling well best serve of just-ignore-you. And when I think about It I can't even have the rights to feel bad about it I don't want to feel sorry for myself either, but that's reality you are the least in It's list. Always think if I am important or did I make it in or even deserve such a different attention. Special? Yes I try to keep my hopes up on that, but I guess I wont be. What I do? I just give way and be understanding cos I don't need anything in return. I just want to see that its real, that I exist and have that part to It's life. 

Right now I'm telling you for me its probably complicated, I don't think It will know that it is complicated and that I'm almost at my limit. The hard part you just want to run away, but It might think I'm weak or a coward, but that's one thing I only want to no longer be charmed by It and just be free and want to know that if It has feelings for me too not like or whatever it is you just want to know. This will is complicated beyond complicated that I can feel it'll burst out any moment and that I can say to IT sooner or later it will be over.

xoxo

hopefully I can manage to finish the next blogsode II: Walking in a Long Distance