To My Dearest #4

I hope you are doing well out there. I just want you to know that I always think of you and that I always keep a positive mind set that you and I will meet someday. While you're searching a way for us to be together, I'm here taking my chances of making myself renewed, preparing myself for you and me. Just working everyday, but I rarely go out or hangout with friends. I'm always alone, there are times that I eat with people I know whenever I get the chance to do so. But mostly it's just me.
I wanted to tell you that I am certain it will be you, and it always been you. I remember this phrase from the movie P.S. I love you, "Don't be afraid to fall in love again. Watch out for that signal when life as you know it ends..." What if we meet, is that the time our life as we know it ends? Or is it the start of a new life we will both know about? I'm not afraid that is for sure, the certainty, the signs, the things I've prayed for are there. I am ready and I am here waiting. I am ready to take a huge step with you and whatever happens we both holding each others hands to go through this so called complicated, beautiful life.

I can't stop thinking about you. Sorry I'm being redundant with this 'thinking about you' because I really do. It always makes me smile when my phone pings and its you. You made my day in so many ways. I read your sweet words, things what you want to do, your plans. I guess this is what it feels to love and be loved it flows continuously. I feel I'm going to explode! You make me happy, so happy.
Let us both reminds ourselves what love is all about and not because of our religion or something, but because it is God's gift for all of us in this world. Love is beautiful, actually it is just us humans aren't perfect that we cannot feel the full capacity of it, because the world itself change the perception of love. I always find 1 Corinthians 13:4 a good reference and reminder what LOVE is about:

Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast,
it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking,
it is not easily angered,
it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil
but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts,
always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails. 


I hope we can put this in our place in the future to remind us all the time through our ups and downs. As for you I want to say "I love you" That is the truth. I wish I can tell it to you at this very moment that I love you. But I can wait, because I want you to hear it from me in person that it comes from the bottom of my heart. It will be worth it at the right time and at the right place and this time at the right person. I gave too many I love you's, end up breaking it. I gave my love in return to be loved, but it was wasted. I thought that when I let go I'm afraid that something amazing in my life won't happen again. I was wrong, totally wrong. God is writing my love story and it is about you and me that is beyond amazing, something wonderful He wanted to show me with you. All the roads I take led me to you, is that not even a sign or just pure coincidence, or a merely fate. Whatever it is I'm glad it led me to you. So thank you for waiting, thank you for being there. We might not be in the same place right now, know to it that in a short period of time your life will turn upside down in the way you'll do to mine.


Love,

Ivy