To My Dearest #5
Our adventure awaits...
I can imagine how it will be when you and me meet for the first time. A little thing called love. It's good, it feels great everything seems to be in slow motion. It makes me happy. I thought I won't feel that again or that best thing, I've been in to many relationship, it seems like I always end up in a slump, either I'm not enough, or being too much, too clingy, too doubtful or it's just that I end up with jerks most of the time. I always go back to square one, one after another. But when I met you, things become so different, my perception and point of view changes. I feel comfortably good about you. You satisfy me in every gratification aspect of my being. It ends up changing me in a good way. Making myself feel good because of you.
I can imagine how it will be when you and me meet for the first time. A little thing called love. It's good, it feels great everything seems to be in slow motion. It makes me happy. I thought I won't feel that again or that best thing, I've been in to many relationship, it seems like I always end up in a slump, either I'm not enough, or being too much, too clingy, too doubtful or it's just that I end up with jerks most of the time. I always go back to square one, one after another. But when I met you, things become so different, my perception and point of view changes. I feel comfortably good about you. You satisfy me in every gratification aspect of my being. It ends up changing me in a good way. Making myself feel good because of you.
I am not a perfect person what more a perfect partner? I have flaws, I might say things I didn't mean saying or probably I did. Do things unintentionally or intentionally. I'm moody and become annoying Ivy sometimes. I am too good, too gullible, too emotional, too spontaneous, too dramatic. Sometimes, I'm too much of everything. But this is me, this what I got hopefully you can accept and love whatever that is in me. Love me for who I am and who I will become, because of you I want to become that better person, a better version of myself that is well suited for you.
On the journey of searching in between I've always felt that I wanted something like the ones in the movies, sweet, funny, romantic movies. Flowers and surprises, things unexpected. I know it happens in real life too. I think it is not a bad idea to dream or want something like that, something you can share with your kids someday. But searching for other half is not an easy like just a walk in the park, it is more like a hike in a mountain to reach the top, or a white water rafting kind of a thing but come to think of it, it's the experience we get in the end. The word WORTH IT is a big deal. I've always dream about you not in a creepy way, something I look forward into whenever I wake up in the morning. You're a dream come true. The man who will save me from it all. You are the man I've been waiting for and you are worth the wait. However, it is not going to be easy and we have to work it out everyday, you and me no matter how bad things can be it goes hand in hand, it is not just me and not just you anymore. You're giving time and efforts, I ought to do the same just to make sure you'll be sticking around for awhile.
Remember what I told you? I said that relationship should have an endless courtship.
One must know what makes the other happy, feel loved, feel special and important everyday. It doesn't mean you get me and I got you we stop from that, I think that is ridiculous. We have to make things interesting. Both of us need to fill each others emptiness to become whole. It will not be a wasted time and effort for me, because you are worth it. I will work on you all the time for the rest of our lives. Finding you is not an easy thing, I bet finding me is not an easy thing with you as well. It's been rough to get into each others arms, but with you I'm always up for an adventure. It will be fun. I found you and you found me. Both of us can enjoy new adventures.
I'm sorry we have to wait, God must have prepared us since the day I met you 3 years ago and then we got to this point. Would I give up? No, I'm here and I'm ready for you, for us. I'm sorry if I gave away my heart a lot of times that easily and ended up being hurt. I didn't wait, I'm such in a hurry and that shouldn't be when I know you are there, but I didn't notice at first. I've always thought the ones I've met are already the one, but not really it is all doom to failure. I thought all the men I'm with has potential to be the one and then ended up breaking my heart. I failed you on that one, but hopefully I'll get it right this time.
I cannot think a day without you in it. It feels like I'm missing something when there's no you in it. I hope I can be where are you right now, or we can be in another somewhere. But I can't for now, I'm excited though I'll see you soon. I felt that my heart will skip out in me. I guess that's a good thing. I hope you never give up on me or let go. I cannot imagine my life now without you in it. You pick me up, you pick up the pieces and mend what is left of me. You are my greatest, you make me whole, it is definitely you.
I won't let go....
Xoxo,
Ivy
On the journey of searching in between I've always felt that I wanted something like the ones in the movies, sweet, funny, romantic movies. Flowers and surprises, things unexpected. I know it happens in real life too. I think it is not a bad idea to dream or want something like that, something you can share with your kids someday. But searching for other half is not an easy like just a walk in the park, it is more like a hike in a mountain to reach the top, or a white water rafting kind of a thing but come to think of it, it's the experience we get in the end. The word WORTH IT is a big deal. I've always dream about you not in a creepy way, something I look forward into whenever I wake up in the morning. You're a dream come true. The man who will save me from it all. You are the man I've been waiting for and you are worth the wait. However, it is not going to be easy and we have to work it out everyday, you and me no matter how bad things can be it goes hand in hand, it is not just me and not just you anymore. You're giving time and efforts, I ought to do the same just to make sure you'll be sticking around for awhile.
Remember what I told you? I said that relationship should have an endless courtship.One must know what makes the other happy, feel loved, feel special and important everyday. It doesn't mean you get me and I got you we stop from that, I think that is ridiculous. We have to make things interesting. Both of us need to fill each others emptiness to become whole. It will not be a wasted time and effort for me, because you are worth it. I will work on you all the time for the rest of our lives. Finding you is not an easy thing, I bet finding me is not an easy thing with you as well. It's been rough to get into each others arms, but with you I'm always up for an adventure. It will be fun. I found you and you found me. Both of us can enjoy new adventures.
I'm sorry we have to wait, God must have prepared us since the day I met you 3 years ago and then we got to this point. Would I give up? No, I'm here and I'm ready for you, for us. I'm sorry if I gave away my heart a lot of times that easily and ended up being hurt. I didn't wait, I'm such in a hurry and that shouldn't be when I know you are there, but I didn't notice at first. I've always thought the ones I've met are already the one, but not really it is all doom to failure. I thought all the men I'm with has potential to be the one and then ended up breaking my heart. I failed you on that one, but hopefully I'll get it right this time.
I cannot think a day without you in it. It feels like I'm missing something when there's no you in it. I hope I can be where are you right now, or we can be in another somewhere. But I can't for now, I'm excited though I'll see you soon. I felt that my heart will skip out in me. I guess that's a good thing. I hope you never give up on me or let go. I cannot imagine my life now without you in it. You pick me up, you pick up the pieces and mend what is left of me. You are my greatest, you make me whole, it is definitely you.
I won't let go....
Xoxo,
Ivy
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