To My Dearest #9

Love is painful, we love and we get hurt.
I know you will never look at me the way you look at her. How much I have tried, but I will never surpass her.

I was in the sofa while searching for a movie to watch in your computer I stumble to some messages you had with her. I wanted to stop I know it's not right, but I cannot stop and then it click. I know how you tried to work things out, how I saw some picture quotes about being separated and in the end you and her will eventually get back together, how much you love her. I look at the photos of you with her. You are happy, way happier. I know how much you love her. You have a family with her, I saw that stone that her daughter made for you, Family. I cried not because I'm jealous, but because I know I will never have anything you had with them. I hate being nosy and I'm sorry if I look at it. I don't know what to feel.

You will never look at me the way you look at her, because I know the time you have spent with her is the most happiest you've ever had in your life, I know that you still remember her or miss her. All the times you spent going to places with her. The surprises you have planned so thoroughly just for her, because you want to tell her how much you love her and important she is in your life. And then I saw the way you looked at her... like you were a blind man, seeing the sun for the very first time. I know she is the best thing that ever happened to your life and no one not even me can take that away. She will always have a place in your heart. No matter what I do I can never replace her in your heart.

You will never look at me the way you look at her. I'm a stranger who's trying to get your affection. I could see you were in love by the way you looked at her. Other girls were faint stars but her for you she is your sun. No matter how long it has been I'm sure that you and her will still meet and everything will be like the first time. She love you I'm sure of that. You still keep the photos, because you can't forget the good times with her, despite the downfall I'm sure you and her will still be okay.

I know you will never look at me the way you look at her and for me that's okay. Maybe, just maybe I'm hoping you will. I know I will never make you feel the you felt things with her. Every touches and kisses. Every sweet words. She is irreplaceable, how lucky she is. Maybe if I'm not around you might work things out. Maybe if I go, she will come back.

My dearest I only hope the best for you. I know love leave, but it always returns. I only want happiness for you. I hope someday you will look at me too...